Hiya kids. We're going to update the deviantart journal today!

Well, how I have been since.... before college started lolol. Uh, alright I suppose. Things have been a little hard.

I think the best way to describe myself is emotionally distraught for the most part? I think that the main reason to this is because I haven't really hung out with many of my friends lately except Calidon (not real name, but I call her that rarely), which sucks. Well, I don't have many in real life friends anyway. But I have had a bad case of wanting to just go every weekend or whatever and not doing it.

Another reason I think is because it's settling in that everyone else is dating but me. Well, that had already settled in, but with all the bullshit that's been going on lately, I have officially realized that I am in fact, completely alone in that department. It's not a thing where I say simply 'oh well' anymore to it. It bothers the fuck out of me now. I am not a desperate little girl for a bf or anything. But it would be fucking nice to get a date or something. I just fail at meeting guys, I guess. But my hope for something like an actual relationship is dwindling very fast, since I hear people talking about their relationships like, all the time as of late.

I know I might do it too when I get one, but for now, I will admit I get jealous and just want all that talk to stop. It continuously reminds me of what I haven't ever had. I dunno... I mean, I wanna be selfish sometimes and think of myself and what I really want, and I want to experience it too, but I am just far off in left field. I suck at this type of thing.

But, yeah. That's me. I usually like putting everyone else before me. But that's kinda beginning to change, and it's worrying me.

Enough with real life. Now on to things deviantart watchers really care about.

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No, Central State isn't dead. It's on hiatus. And no, I don't plan on working on it anytime soon. My creativity in the horror/mystery department is completely shot for now. Maybe I will work on it fall break, maybe I won't.

I have been favoriting a lot of bases as of late. I might do a few of those.

I need to compose a character sheet for Jillian Lonescu (heroine of CS, rp character as well) because I plan on making her outfit for Halloween (not the trench one, for anyone who knows what she looks like in CS. I'm making her old fashioned dress outfit.). I am also planning on dyeing my hair light blond, not only for the part (seriously, in all honesty I think dyeing your hair for like cosplay and stuff is a little too much. But meh.) but also because I think I'll look good as my old blond self.

Also, thinking of making comic strips from little ideas I have for her and other characters.

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I think that's it for now. I felt like I was dying on here. So there ya have it.